Who knew?

Who knew it would be this hard?

I was excited and scared, looking forward to the new stuff.  But the old stuff has such a hold on me, that it's almost impossible to let it go.

God knew.  He made sure I left.  He had His plan and I have to abide - no matter how hard.

I've done hard things before.  I've made it through all the things I should have laid down and given up over.  This is just another one of those things.

It wasn't real until today.  Now it's real.  I cannot go back again.  No matter what.

If there are things there that I need or want, too bad.  It's not mine anymore.  If there are things there that you need or want, too bad.  It's not yours anymore either. 

Storage unit is full to the brim and I still left so much behind....so many memories...so many mementos...so many things....and that's all they are - things. 

Oh, but it hurts....so bad...so many years of my life...so many happy memories and times...so many sad ones too. 

A therapist told Trav that bad memories can hold you to a place just as strongly as good ones...that it is the emotion that holds you prisoner, regardless of the reason behind it.  I guess that's true.

It's the home my parents build.  The home we came to when we left the service.  The home we brought Shane to when he was born.  The home we lived in and loved in and lost in.  All of our fur babies are buried on that property. 

So much love...so much pain...so much growth...so much life.

I know this is not the type of post you are used to seeing from me, but it needed to be said and I think you needed to hear it, too.  Thank you for your understanding as I deal with this new situation.  Love to you all.

Maiden Voyage!!!!

Well...we made our first trip in the camper.  Not far, just about 10 miles from the house.  Hopefully this is where we will be until the beginning of February.  We are eternally grateful to our wonderful friend for offering us this beautiful place to park our home until we get all our ducks in a row.  We could not ask for a better friend.  We appreciate our good friend Jay as well, for although we did not take him up on his offer, it was made with an open heart. Friends who are really family - We love you both!!! 

We couldn’t have done it today, without Althea and Jesse.  They were so helpful and encouraging.  Didn’t let us get/stay rattled no matter what happened.  Kept us on an even keel the whole time.  We are truly blessed to have family who can and do step up when we need them.  Thank you from the bottom of our hearts!!!!  And I want to mention the other part of the Wendell trio, Debi has been keeping tabs on us and making sure that we are doing ok and have what we need as the time got closer….even loaned us her van when we had to leave the truck to be detailed.  Family!  Where would we be without them?!

Waving Good bye

Now, the cats pitched a fit when we put them in the crate, first we had to get them out of their room…didn’t get the door locked soon enough, but finally settled down.  Annie is still at the house as we have no electric here, at this time, working on that issue – simple oversight on the part of my sweet Trav, he didn’t get with the owner/caretaker so didn’t know that there is a switch inside that needs to be thrown.

Only one thing fell and that was my craft room shelves, one side of the bracket just came right out of the wall, guess I’ll use anchors when I put it back up.  Other than that, non-eventful inside, so I guess we did a good job of putting everything up where it would stay put.  Two tension rods came free, but the items they were holding never moved, so they don’t count. Lol

As I sit here writing this, in the dark cuz no electricity, all I can really think about is how blessed we have been thru all of this.  Every deadline has been met and God has found ways to extent time when we needed it, every time.

On the road

our new front yard

This post is a little out of whack since I am still kinda stressed and seem to have acquired a migraine along the way – it is manageable, but don’t ask me to make any more decisions today – but I wanted to at least get it written while everything was still fresh in my mind.

our new yard

our new yard

Annie has been doing wonderful with her ‘camper training’.  Coming in and going out without any real issues.  She has it down.  She wasn’t totally comfortable with Jess and Althea this morning, but she didn’t freak out like last time, so that is a huge improvement.  She is a little confused about where she lives, but that will sort itself out now that the camper is not at the house.

The sale is tomorrow, and we are no where near done getting all the stuff out of the house.  But we are doing the very best that we can and that will have to do.  We are living in the camper, and that seems to be going okay.  Seeing as moving the camper pretty much took up the whole day, I didn’t get the laundry done like I had hoped, but that is minor in the grand scheme of things.  I am not unhappy with any of this at this point.  We are happy, we have a roof over our heads, we will be eating soon and we are safe…. who could ask for anything more?  Thank you, God!

Edit:  we have Power!!!  Thank you, Bobby, for going out of your way to make sure we were taken care of.